Money. We all need it. Problem with me is, I don't like the idea of working for others and making them loads of cash when I should be making it. After all, I'm doing all the work! So, I tried doing the whole online store thing through Zazzle. Opened it up a couple of months ago and forgot all about it. Well I just got an email saying I just sold 3 hats that I created! I can't believe it actually worked. Imagine that... Anyway, check out my site. While you're there, BUY SOMETHING!!!      Thanks

Day in, day out.... Same 'ol thing. You go to bed feeling like the above mentioned title. Just before you hit that last moment of being awake in this world you think to yourself, "Tomorrow is going to be better. It just has to be." ............. Then you wake up...... Problem is not waking up with the exact same problems life has thrown at you but rather waking up feeling exactly like the aforementioned title yet again! You went to bed feeling like that. Now, it's like your brain never shut down for the night. Here you are in the same rut with no end in sight. Insanity I tells ya, insanity. So I ask myself, am I depressed, defeated, or disillusioned about everything going on around me? Your heart wants to go with the emotions of being depressed and defeated. Your mind however, it says you've been disillusioned...

This is just crazy. Got up this morning, well, afternoon, and the oven on our stove burned out. Just in time for Thanksgiving. As I said in a previous post, I will be glad when this season passes. Oh well. What can you do? Pick up the pieces, get a new element and move on to the next thing. Take it one trial at a time and pray for the day of the flood stage. In case you didn't know, a floodstage is where is rains so much that land becomes saturated with water and begins to overflow, hence the flood. I believe that is what God's people are waiting for, a flood stage of blessings...

Axl Rose, Slash, and the rest of the gang contend with Egos, Booze, and years of bad hair.

Time for church. So many things going through my head right now. I have my 3 kids with me. They are 5, 3, and 2. So you know how they can be. I play the piano at church so I can't sit with them to keep an eye on them. My dad is a minister so he sits on the complete opposite side. When I ask him to sit with the kids, he doesn't mind, but is hesitant. (For odd reasons). Anyway, I'll be glad when things start to change. I really need God to perform a miracle today. Not next month, nor next week. Not even tomorrow. Today. I wonder how the service is going to go.....

Shaun. Why is he just throwing his life away?! He's been my best friend for 20 years now. We're more like brothers, minus the blood. He's met this girl and have been dating her for almost a year now. Problem is, she's no good for him. She treats him like dirt, curses at him constantly, and man does she lay on the guilt trips! He keeps saying that they aren't dating anymore. Yeah, right. Who in their right mind is gonna take their ex-girlfriend around places, talk to her on the phone for hours at a time, and even stay the night at her house if you're not seeing her anymore?! She's probably gonna end up pregnant and then he might as well hang it up. Why is he so freakin' blind?! No one he has ever brought this girl around likes her. His family, friends, me. No one. She rubs people the wrong way with her nasty attitude and language, not to mention the way she treats Shaun. I know what he's thinking. He's thinking he's 29 years old and will probably not get anyone else. WHATEVER! He's just starting if you ask me. 6 billion people in this world and I'm guessing half are female. Yeah, his chances of finding the right girl are pretty good.... just as long as it's not her.

This is completely insane. It is 2:40 AM EST, and I'm still up. Why, do you ask? Because there is so much going on right now. So much stress. I have found a song by famous country artists Brooks and Dunn entitled, "God Must Be Busy". This song intrigued me because that is precisely how I am feeling about my life right now. I have been in His business, (I call it a business for certain reasons), since the age of 14. Never, and I mean never, have I seen God so silent. I have tried numerous things to get His attention. Some of you out there may say I'm not getting His attention because He's not there. Believe what you may. I'm not here to bash on you. As some one once told me, we'll all find out in the end. I can not comprehend this season in my life! I'm finding that it's not only affecting me but others I know as well. I know He's there, but yet silent. I'll be glad when this season passes... 

Brooks & Dunn - God Must Be Busy

Brooks & Dunn